This week my mom and dad left to volunteer at a Christian camp, my mom will be the nurse and dad will be her... sidekick? So it's made me think a lot about motherhood and the kind of mom I want to be. I'm sure they're having an amazing time and who wouldn't love having a nurse like mine giving you candy while fixing booboos???? I've never met a child who doesn't adore my mom. She has a lot of patience and gets even the nastiest kids to turn around. I think the reason I'm good with kids is because she is the queen of fun. So while they're gone Spencer and I have the place to ourselves! I was really worried about it because I always go to her for questions about Brielle and she's out of cell phone reach so I have to wait for emails. I'm actually doing great. It makes me feel really good because now I know for sure that Spencer and I are ready to move out and do it on our own. Even without the extra hands I'm getting everything done, the house is spotless and I haven't killed any birds yet! The one thing that's hard about being alone is, I MISS THEM.
My mom is one of my best friends and my dad is the greatest. Yes, I know if my mom were hear she'd be pulling the "I'm your mom not your friend." card but... She's my friend and mom. I hope that I can be the kind of mom mine has been. She's been an encourager, leader, nurturer, teacher, disciplinary and guidance all my life. The best thing about her is she never does anything for herself. It seems like everything she does is for others. Sometimes she's hard to understand. Most people have some sort of motive and reason for the things they do. But she does everything to be Christ-like which means, serving others. But at the same time she has boundaries and protects herself. She's always told me that nobody can use you as a doormat unless you let them. I know that a lot of the time she gets misunderstood because of how she lives but I still want to be just like that. Even if nobody ever says "thank you" or understands.
Jesus didn't call us here to have a good time and make ourselves happy. He asked to be bigger than that. He wanted us to take a step out in faith and do what doesn't come naturally, to love the unlovable. Jesus didn't turn away from anybody. He welcomes the young, old and sinners to be part of his family. Even when others mocked him and told him it's wrong to help prostitutes and the lowest of the low he continued. Instead of telling them "You're right. Why help those who do nothing for you!" He said "It's not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick." [Matthew 9:12]
So as I'm thinking about the person I want to be. I want to be a wife of noble character who's gentle and encouraging. I want to be a mom who you can always count on and at the same time be steady and strong. Something my mom did really well was she always tells it how it is. She's not going to pretend she agrees with you or let you get away with being stupid. It's so funny because some of Jordan and my friends come over to talk and hang out with HER. Because they know she'll love them no matter what but at the same time will be honest and say what needs to be said. I want to be honest and be filled with wisdom. It's so important that I, as a mother, know my bible so I can always bring my children back to what God has said. My mom admits when she's wrong and if she said something she shouldn't have. I want to be like that too. I think it's good to tell your kids you're sorry if you messed up because it shows them, nobody's perfect but keep trying. I love my baby girl so much and I can't wait to see how she grows up and what she wants to be. I'm sure there will be hard times and she'll let me down but I'll never give up and I'll always forgive. I can't wait to see what the future holds for my family!! ♥
10 A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still night;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her female servants.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.
18 She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.
19 In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20 She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.
21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22 She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:
29 “Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all.”
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
31 Honor her for all that her hands have done,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.
Proverbs 31:10-31
BRIELLE UPDATE ~ She's rolling over! I can hardly get her to stay on her back anymore she's so funny. The 23rd she did it and ever since then she won't stay still. It's funny because she's never liked tummy time but now she's doing it all the time because she can't roll on her back. Hahaha she's too cute.
