Update!

     Wow! This year has just flown by! It seems like this year with Brielle has been the shortest of my entire life. Ive had the best times with her and I wish she hadn't grown up so fast. I feel so blessed to have such a healthy and happy baby in my life. I've been wanting to blog more because I love looking back and seeing all the weird and silly things I wrote but we don't have wifi at our apartment so I have to post from my phone which takes FOREVER! So I am going to try so very hard to post once a week. .. let's see how that goes.

     Brielle has gotten so big! She is 22lbs and walking! Her birthday is February 18th and we are so excited! We are throwing her a big party the 15th and hope she has the best time. She eats everything we eat and only has about 2 bottles a day. Its so fun feeding her figuring out what she likes. She acts like a little toddler already. She can wave, blow kisses and say mama and dada. She talks to herself way more than she used to but she is still super shy in public! Which I don't mind, then I don't have to share. ;) She received her first birthday party invite to her best friends this Saturday! Her friend is 5 days away from her and they are so cute together. I don't leave Brielle in the nursery at church but I do go in with her so she can visit the other little girl. Spencer and I call her the adventurer because she is always roaming about and wanting to learn (and break ;)) new things. We are so excited for her to turn 1 but it is SO bittersweet. I can't believe how fast it went by, nothing could've prepared my heart. I am so thankful to God for giving me Brielle and the opportunity to be an at home Mama. I still hate going anywhere without her!! I went to a lodge for a night with Spencer, just the two of us, it was fun and I loved doing something that made Spencer happy but about an hour into our trip I was ready to go home! I will always want to be bring our kids with us on trips and I think Spencer is okay with that too. Maybe once a year he'll get me to leave.

     About Spencer and I, we are doing good I work at a food cart twice a week for a total of six hours. It's good for the extra cash but I miss Brielle too much! I am also working on starting a mom's group at my church which I am really excited and nervous about! I have finally given in - I am now consistently working out 5x week and running a little too. Im glad I decided to, I actually feel great and enjoy it! Being over 20lbs lighter is a really noticable difference too which is great. Plus I do home workouts once brielle is sleeping so I don't have to ever leave her. If I hadn't figure out a way to workout while being with my baby, it would not happen haha. Spencer is working hard, and very happy. He also has gottten into martial arts which he is really enjoying. Its nice for him to be able to spar with other guys and burn some energy haha.

     I feel so blessed and I am so thankful for all the ways God has provided for us. Even though we are so imperfect he's never given up.  I really want to focus my entire life around Jesus and his perfect, free gift of eternal life. I don't know how I get so distracted when he is the reason I am alive. This life is so short and I want to use it to glorify his name. I don't want to be eighty and look back wishing I'd tried harder. Jesus is the only thing we can truly count on and I want to reflect his love and light. I hope I am able to dedicate my everything to him and not get distracted and forget all he's done. One thing I'm truly thankful for today, that little sliver of sun outside my window. God, just one more thing, do I have to wait for spring?