S E A S O N S !

     Spring sprang and fall is already almost at an end... Where did this time go? I feel like these past nine months with Brielle have been the shortest nine months of my life. There have been so many different changes in this past year and they all just flew by. I am so thankful for my wonderful husband who is trying to be the best he can be and for always trying to make me happy. We celebrated Thanksgiving early with my Grandparents and with our whole extended family, before we sat down for dinner my Grandpa wanted to hear from all of us what the best thing of this year was. I thought it through and Brielle is the best thing of this entire year. She has changed everything. She's brought people together, she's healed broken relationships, she's brought love, she's brought a gentleness from Spencer and she's made me something else. She's turned me into a mom and she's shown me how to be truly selfless.  
     Before I had Brielle I didn't know how hard things can be. I never knew what being tired was until her. I've learned to give certain things up so I can be there for her and care for her and it's made me a better person. It really changes you to know that someone so little and helpless depends solely on you to keep her safe and healthy. But I can't protect her from everything. I can't promise her she'll never be hurt. I can't promise her her heart won't break. I've learned to rely on the one I depend on. I know that no matter what tries to bring her down throughout her life won't be fought alone. She will have God right there by her side. Sharing in her joy and wiping her tears in every season of her life. He'll hold her close. Even if she pushes him away he'll be there waiting, never leaving.
     There have been times when I've ignored God and chosen my own path to "happiness". But every time I have he's brought me back. No matter what pain, no matter what he wanted me and wouldn't let me go. He's been my first true love and would not let me hurt myself anymore. In the end, despite my sin and mistakes. He gave me Brielle. A perfect angel. She will one day break my heart but I will never let go. Never. I can't wait to see how she grows and to spend every season with her from here on out. He gave me Spencer, despite everything he's been true and loyal. How could I not be happy? 
     "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
    

As we enter new seasons in our life I am so excited. It's our first time as a family of three to celebrate the holidays and make new traditions and reminisce some of the old. I can't wait to see all that comes every new year and I can't wait to spend it with my new family. This is a time for joy and laughter. :)